The Truth Project

I'm in an art journaling course that is more about finding our own truth then it is about art journals. The art journal is just the path we take to get to our truth.

I've had a gazillion years of therapy and figured that this course would be pretty easy for me. What a shock it was to my system when feelings started coming up that I never knew I had.

I have cried a lot during this course but at the same time I have lowered some of my defenses. I feel more deeply then I did before. I am more open to love. And I am more open to pain. That might sound like a bad thing but when you swallow so much pain through your life, it actually feels pretty good to be able to feel it, deal with and then let it go.

I've been depressed during this course and have spent too many hours in bed. But I've also felt lighter now that some of this pain that I've hidden from is finally coming to the surface.

And you know what's really great? The leader of this amazing course.
Stephanie is such a wonderful, loving woman. She's like a bright light shining in a room full of deep, dark secrets.. She's a person you dont mind spilling your soul in front of. You know that when you're hurting she will be there to wrap her cyber arms around you and make you feel that you're okay. She helps you feel loved and perfect just the way you are instead of broken. I've never met her personally or talked to her on the phone but I know she is the type of woman I would be honored to have as a personal friend.

Here's the link to her course:
http://findingyourvoiceoftruth.com/truth-project-i/


Now, for my journal pages. I warn you, they are straight from my soul and filled with sadness and anger. There is foul language in the one and I dont use that type of language. But there were no other words to get my anger across onto the page.


Here we go....

This is the front cover of my journal for this course



This is the back cover



This is the inside cover and my intentions I have while working through the course



The next page with my motto


 

This is a two page spread of the things I'm afraid of. You can always click on it to see the larger version.



Another page about Fear.
How do you like the zipper around the eye?
I made these pages with the song Bohemium Rhapsody playing through my mind.

  

This is a two page spread about childhood wounds. I printed off a black and white picture of myself as a little girl and painted it in with water colors and acrylics  The watering can is attached with brads and glue.

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These are just close ups of the above spread.

This spread is another one about childhood wounds. 

As I was working on the second page the emotions took over and I let it all out. 

This is just a page as a response to the previous pages. My own question to myself

This past week we were to do a page of a memory. Not the worst memory but not the best one .Inside the envelope there will be a letter that I write to the little girl I used to be.

There you go. A look into my mind.

Now we are all caught up.

 

I hope you all have a wonderful evening full of love and laughter. 

Another Long Catch Up Post

Lately, not only have I not been blogging but I also havent been uploading my artwork anywhere. Not good... So let me take the time now to get some work uploaded. There will be more then one post about it since some of the artwork is from a course I'm taking.....

This first one is an ATC for a lottery in ATC Fun. The theme is Winter Wonderland.

 

Every now and then Jeannie does a mystery swap in ATC Fun. She sends us all an item to make an ATC with but we dont know what it is until we get it. This month we used the mystery item and made another ATC with the card she mailed them in. This is the one made with the card.

 

This one was made with the mystery item. She sent a couple fall leaves. I dipped mine in Utee and shaped them. They're so cool I have to make one for myself.

We're doing Secret Santa in ATC Fun and this is the canvas I made for my partner.  Each package is wrapped and has ribbon wrapped around it. The candy canes are plastic and the hanger is a metal present. The canvas is 3D because the presents stick out from it. I think its cool. I hope she likes it.

Now we jump into the Dark Journal Challenge group. This page was made using a poem I wrote many years ago called "The Beast Within"... The first page the door is shut but in the second page the door is open and the beast is coming inside.
If you're wondering what the beast is that I wrote about: Its depression. I picture my depression, not as an emotion, but as a live creature trying to steal my life.
Personally I love this page.

Over in the Journal Challenges group we had to make a page about being Queen. I consider myself to be the Queen of Ravens so my page had to show that. What you cant see is how the gold shimmers. I used a purple background since I am now royalty. LOL

Finally in the Journal Challenge group we had to make a page with the journaling in a wavy line of some sort. Mine is about nature and how it watches over the generations of people.

Okay, that's it for this post. The next one will have a lot more emotional pages. So if you dont like dark pages, hurt feelings or swearing you might want to skip it.